Confessions

Looking up to heaven this morning, I heartily confess:

I deserve neither love nor marriage, fatherhood, family, friendship, and myriad such gifts.

I deserve neither shelter nor food, clothing, automobile, job, paycheck, and additional benefits.

I deserve neither compassion nor respect, kindness, patience, generosity, and other divine mercies.

I deserve neither intellect nor artistry, craftsmanship, memory, imagination, and a slew of supplemental faculties.

I deserve one thing only -- death.

"For the wages of sin is death . . ." (Rom 6:23a)

The white-hot holiness of the Father demands that i be executed for my filthy rebellion, vile insurrection, and foul disobedience against the purity of His truths and His ways . . .

Called to embrace wholehearted loving, instead I love God and neighbor very little on some days and at other times find no love at all for friend or foe.

Called to embrace a life of unceasing prayer, instead I neglect prayer all too often counseling my mind that I need not pray or that I have prayed enough.

Called to embrace authentic living, I live on the one hand with a dash of hypocrisy enabling me to sin more safely because grace abounds, and on the other with a basin of posturing that lulls my mind into receiving holy teachings regularly while living unholily.

Yes, according to the Law, I deserve nothing but death.

Yet (what joy this 3-letter word encapsulates!), there is grace.

Though I deserve death, Christ grants me life!!!!

". . . but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Rom 6:23b)

I will not die.
I will but live.
I will live and live victoriously.

Sin and death will not prevail.
God's love for me will never fail.

I surrender to You, O Lord!